What do you really want?

I want to lose some weight, but I also WANT some chocolate. I know the two don't go together, and it is because I have had the chocolate too often that I have the problem that I now weigh 10 stone and not 8 any more.

It's often like that in life, what we WANT in the short term is not compatible with what we REALLY want in the long term.

My REAL BIG VISION is loving Jesus, exploring the fullness of being a celibate, building the church. In the short term I find myself very often behaving like a spoiled kid, I want to go to bed early, I want to stop in bed late, I want to hide myself away with a book, I want to go shopping, I want to..... Basically there are millions of things I could do which are not at all wrong in themselves, but they fill up my life and God only gets the leftovers.

Someone asked us two questions in a meeting recently:

• What do you want from God?
• What does God want from you?

That's the key to it really.

What I want from God is the fullness of what he has promised us. And what he wants from me is my love and devotion. It's a two-way thing, and God isn't the one letting the side down.