This is a song by Casting Crowns that has really inspired me
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heartNot because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You'reChorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am YoursWho Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in meI am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
I have been thrashing an issue in my head over the last week, and basically getting into a state over it. I knew the best person to talk to was God, so I talked to Him, I told Him I was going to tell Him everything and then shut up about it.
So I told him, and then nagged Him, and kept thinking about it, and didn't leave it alone like I promised, then wondered why I felt so confused!
On Saturday I had a long journey down to Cobham on my own to visit my Great Aunt, and I had this song playing. When I arrived I was early so went for a walk along the river, and then it suddenly clicked that I had everything the wrong way around. It is not “God, why have you not helped me like You should?” but “God, why do you help me when there is no reason why you should?”
During the afternoon I was talking to my Great Aunt and she told me some of the things she has gone through in her life. They are HORRENDOUS, but when I talked to her she was not bitter, she was not resentful. She still feels pain and is a very lonely lady these days, but she does not hold a grudge, she thanks God for the good times and the seasons of blessing in her life.
For the second time in the day I felt so grateful for what God has done for me. Who am I to winge and complain and nag at Him?
1 comment:
hi decided its really coll that your great ant itsnt bitter we was talking the other week a few of us on how bitter old peeps get thats not in the lord, but like you said has we stand with jesus we have northing to complaine about has we are with him and coved bye his grace etc iv got a card at home witch says you/your precious in gods sight and thats what we are PRECIOUS to him singed k l j
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