Choosing to be hurt

It seems a right daft thing to do, but I spent most of last week choosing to be hurt!

The previous Friday I had tried to sort something out at work that I thought would be nice for the others Problem was someone else thought I was being awkward/fussy and the rest did not appreciate it anyway! The result was I decided not to spend any time with anyone 'cos whatever you say/do is bound to be wrong , so it's better to stay out of the way.

So, is that sulking? Is it some kind of emotional self defence that says "I know you'll hurt me, so I'll make sure you can't, even if doing so means I hurt myself"?

By the end of the week I was totally fed up and lonely etc etc so it didn't work staying out of the way. It just spoiled everything else and meant I couldn't find my spirit to worship/pray until I sorted myself out.


How does that inspire me about Jesus?
It made me think that the pain he went through on the cross was more than physical. He had to put up with being misunderstood, mis represented, teased, mocked, criticised, abandoned, rejected, humiliated, exposed etc etc.

These are the psychological pains we humans go to all kinds of complicated lengths to avoid.

And he went through it for us.

That makes me well ashamed.